I probably should get on here more. i dont feel so inspired anymore.

I can't feel anything but hopeless. Sure, anyone is worse off than me. that thought still never helps.

My dreams of living in New York are gone. I don't want to live there. It didn't seem to offer me much on anything- it seemed characterless, a moldable claylike city, kind of cleche. my urban fantasies are gone. I'm looking for something more.

ever since school ended i've been in a void.

i feel passionless. what the hell is wrong with me. i don't have dreams anymore. i wonder why i'm alive. nothing scares me much except for one thing.

sometimes i need to sleep.